I'm still mad as hell and I don't have time to go 'round and 'round and 'round"
There was a time when the words from this Dixie Chicks chorus were the soundtrack to a lot of hard times, personal failure, and mistakes in my life. A much more relaxed and "at peace" version of me these days can now confess to you that I bottled up anger, fear, and heartache and used it as fuel for personal challenges. I was fighting everyone and everything in my life. But I've let all of that go. I just got tired of being angry and discontent. Plus, when your children are okay, your grand kids are healthy and wonderful, and you get to spend your life with your best friend and the woman you find to be the most beautiful and amazing person you've ever met ... how can I be anything but overjoyed.
|Me, Jack, and the love of my life a couple of years ago on a snowy trail ... just enjoying life|
The fact is, I'm training harder and faster than ever and I'm in nearly the best shape of my life. I refuse to let a birth certificate date define me. I refuse to "act my age". I still have so many running goals to accomplish and I plan on taking them captive one by one.
It kind of makes me sad sometimes to see people my age who say "yeah, I used to be a runner", or "I really used to work out a lot", but now they're thick around the middle, tired of life, and a shell of who they used to be. What happened? Did someone tell them they were too old for what they were doing? Did it just get too hard to maintain and begin to hurt? Where did the passion go?
I'd be less than honest if I didn't admit that every year it seems to take more and more energy to go as fast as I want to go, or as far as I need to go. I seem to ache a little more. And the toasty warm covers seem to wrap my body tighter than ever when the alarm sounds on cold winter mornings. But I've never pursued mediocre or average, and don't plan on starting now.
A few years ago, Michael of It's All About Pace turned me on to the writings poet Dylan Thomas. His most famous work, and my favorite passage goes ...
"Do not go gentle into that good night,
Old age should burn and rave at close of day;
Rage, rage against the dying of the light."
I hope these words define my running. I have no plans on anything less than a full out attack on my record book. Am I the proud grandfather of three ... absolutely! And have I grown up and settled down a lot over the years ... sure! But as far as pushing myself to the limit and getting every drop of talent and ability out of my legs ... consider me pissed, because I'm training as violently and passionately as ever. I'm not ready make nice and not ready to back down. But seriously ... life is good!
... Be Great Today!